Blessed...

Things are starting to really fall into place. I've been overwhelmed for the past 2 months with the question of to stay home after baby, or not to stay home. Well, finally, a few weeks ago, Andrew and I decided that we wanted me to stay home. At least most of the time. We know that it's unrealistic if I stay home 100% of the time with zero income. So since then, we've been throwing around ideas of different part time jobs I could do. Finally, two nights ago, I realized that I'm not going to really have an answer to that question until the baby comes. It's not like I'm going to find a job offer right now that wants to give me a job 9 months from now. So Andrew and I talked about it and we decided to just wait and to trust. We decided we'd just plan on me leaving my job in April and that come June, we'd see what job God had waiting for me in the wings.

Well, funny how when you finally decide to trust God, he can sometimes come through rather quickly. I don't want to say too much yet until it's official, but it looks like I might get the best of both worlds. Keeping my job, and having lots of time with baby. We feel very lucky. =)

The more we figure out the logistics of our little bundle of joy, the more I allow myself to feel true excitement. I still can't believe I'm going to have a little baby in my arms in just 6 months. Actually, I'm having a harder time believing that a year and half from now, I'll have a little one year old running around. Having a growing child feels a lot more unreal than having a tiny baby. =D Crazy!

Careful What You Wish For...

...here it comes... the revealing! Most people already know, so why not blog about it. I need a place to jot down my feelings. ;) Anyway...

I'm sitting here totally an absolutely blown away by my last post. That's why I had to write this entry RIGHT NOW! I'm so blown away! Two months ago. 11 Weeks ago. I said in my blog " I'm ready for God to surprise me some more..." (Check if you don't believe me) Omg, does He listen! That very day/week/general time frame, there were tiny little cells coming together and multiplying like crazy without me having a clue. A baby! I'm exactly 11 weeks along, exactly 11 weeks after I was writing a journal entry about how much God can do in a year that we couldn't possibly imagine. It's so true! Andrew and I had no idea that next April, we'd be inviting a new little life into this world, but we are! And we couldn't be more thrilled. Although it came as a surprise, it didn't take us more than 5 minutes to be hooked on the idea. And in just a matter of weeks, our whole life, our purpose, our general direction took on a new light. A baby! Can you believe it!? I still can't sometimes. =)

I've been super lucky so far. Hardly any sickness. Heartburn at most. Can't complain. The only "symptoms" I've really had are complete crazy tiredness and my pants getting a little snug. ;) That and my body just doesn't feel "normal." I spose it'll be awhile till I feel "normal" again. And then I'm guessing that normalcy will take on a whole new meaning.

Anyway, I'm sure that the blog posts will multiply from here on out. There are so many things I'm learning about myself, and so many concerns that need "talking" out. Definately a huge subject matter for this lovely blog of mine. So I'll definately keep you posted. All I can say right now is that it's super exciting and I can't believe how quickly I'm sure this is all going to happen. Although, as exciting as it is... it's scary too! I'm scared of the process, of what's going to be taking place in my body. I'm scared of knowing what to do as a first time Mom. I'm scared I won't be good enough, smart enough, loving enough. They say it all comes natural. I sure hope so! Cause being responsible for such a tiny life that's going to do great things... that's intimidating!...

...but so amazing! =D